my friends and i had a "slumber party" kinda night... hahahahah. well we stayed at mhel's place.. me, cams, mhel and krissy... too bad ago didn't stay (nagalit si mother dear kasi late niya na sinabi na he'll be staying at mhel's house for the night)

it's a really fun night kwentos, girl talks, problems, other people's issues (wahahahah chika!), taking pictures, laughing, drinking, pig eating... it was fun isipin mo, uminom ako?? they kept on saying, "we're happy and we won't forget this night kasi uminom si tans". really, i'm not much of a drinker.. you can see me smoking all day, but you seeing me drinking beer or any alcohol? very rare! hahahahah hmmm... last night was really something kasi it's the first time sa i drank more than i my limitation and yet i didn't get drunk.. well i was kinda dizzy and bigat ng head ko, but i didn't vomit and stuff like that.

it was nice... we talked about almost anything. hmmm, most of my friends are guys, we talk about guy stuff and i enjoy their company and kalokohan very much. but the kind of conversation we had last friday? it was very different.. we talked about things that really mattered. most people know me as very unserious and puro kalokohan and walang ibang gustong gawin kundi tumawa, have fun, and make fun of other people. i don't even talk about matters of the heart. most people think i'm younger than my age because of the way i act... but that night everything changed (was it because of the alcohol? wahahahah i don't think so).

it made me realize that there are a lot of things na hindi ko pa nagpagdadaanan. there's so much that life has to offer but i refuse to experience (or i wasn't aware that i refuse to experience it)... well, i also realize that i'm still a kid.. by actions and by heart.

today is july11-tuesday. 3 days since our very 1st gurls' sleepover at mhel's place... we're back in school... same old tans (all boyish and crazy) but i will never forget the night i talked, thinked, and acted like a total girly-girl (nyahahahahahah!!! kadiri!! parang hindi bagay saken??)

can't wait for the next sleepover

Currently listening to: some commercial sa HBO
Currently feeling: lazyyyyyyyyy

"come on baby get your shoes on
you're lookin' like you need a rescue
underneath the southern moonlight where only i could find you..."

sugar - by tonic

hahahahah wala lang... i missed listening to this song... kanina ko lang ulit 'to naparimggan..
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hmmm... i was eating coffee crumble when krizzy texted me. her nagusap daw sila ng x nia... to cut it short, krizzy decided to talk to him and tell him na that would be the last time they would talk. after that, kalimutan na... na hindi niya na kilala si x... the moment i read that, mejo naging teary-eyed ako... (syet!! pota!) somehow i can relate to her situation... i feel her pain. the only difference is she managed to tell that straight to his face yet ako... hind pa... well, i've been trying to but i can't seem to keep my word.
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from now on...

i don't know you anymore

i don't even care

i suffered enough

waaaaaaaaaaa

*another promise made by tans... well, sana magwa ko... i'll try my best. so far i'm doing good.. i haven't talked to him for weeks na coolness!!!
wahahahah

it's soooo coool na hinidi niya binabasa blog ko

well, i don't even think alam niya na may blog ako
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another topic:

i was planning to go to our college party later sa metro bar....
but as usual... tinatamad ko

Currently listening to: mad caddies
Currently feeling: restless

I'm a punk rock prom queen
Brown paper magazine
Hotter than you've ever seen
Everywhere and in between
I'm a ten ticket thrill ride
Don't you wanna come inside?
Five star triple threat
hardest of the hard to get
No one's little red corvetter
Ain't seen nothing little yet

It's been 6 whole hours
And 5 long days
For all your lies to come undone
And those three small words
Were way too late
'Cause you can't see that I'm the one

I'm your late night head rush
Ace high royal flush
Red velvet orange crush
You just don't impress me much
A glossy, double cover spread
Opened up inside your head
A black cherry paradise
Half the sugar, twice the spice
I don't wanna treat you nice
Come on baby roll the dice!

It's been 6 whole hours
And 5 long days
For all your lies to come undone
And those three small words
Were way too late
Can't you see that I'm the one?

Currently listening to: silverchair - my favorite thing
Currently feeling: blaaaaahhhh

Spin around come back home
You're runnin out on a line
Sometimes feel I'm going outta my mind
Stunned here waitin for anyone to take the time
Spin around we get further and further away
Smile and wave and ain't got nothin to say
Stunned here waitin for anyone to take the time
To change my mind this time

I've been starin' at the sun for some time
It gets dark inside but I don't mind
And if you're gone its like I'm goin' blind
I can't get by this time

Spin around jump back take another look at yourself
You've been hidin' all alone on a shelf
Frozen waitin for anyone who'll change my mind
Spin around well come down now cause its all getting clear
Everything you ever wanted is here
We never needed anyone to change your mind
Don't waste our time
We're fine

I've been starin at the sun for some time
It gets dark inside but I don't mind
And if you're gone it likes I'm going blind
I can't get by this time

Currently listening to: jimmy eat world - authority song
Currently feeling: jump... jump... jump...

> si yano inlove na.. > si ianne heatbroken sa ex niya... > si kaye kaya? > si meggy nasa baguio at miss ko na! > si dinggoy masaya ang lovelife ngaun... weeee > si joey... ewan, walang balita (oi magparamdam ka! alis tayo!) > si rachel... going strong with paul > si rein... konting tiis pa uuwi na si horhe!! > si maymay, well sila pa din > si nina, ayun! bakasyon grande > ako? panget pa din... weeeeeeeeee

Currently listening to: reel big fish - valerie
Currently feeling: talon dali!!

Why are there so many songs about rainbows And what's on the other side? Rainbows are visions, but only illusions, And rainbows have nothing to hide. So we've been told and some choose to believe it I know they're wrong, wait and see. Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection, The lovers, the dreamers and me. Who said that every wish would be heard and answered when wished on the morning star? Somebody thought of that and someone believed it, and look what it's done so far. What's so amazing that keeps us stargazing? And what do we think we might see? Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection, the lovers, the dreamers and me. All of us under its spell, we know that it's probably magic.... Have you been half asleep and have you heard voices? I've heard them calling my name. Is this the sweet sound that calls the young sailors? The voice might be one and the same. I've heard it too many times to ignore it. It's something that I'm supposed to be. Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection, the lovers, the dreamers and me.

Currently listening to: tonic - you wanted more
Currently feeling: ngeeee!!!