then again...

we're fighting...

never ending...

i'm sure. he'll leave me anytime soon...

 i can't think straight.... i can't think of anything else...

our relationship is falling apart. i can't seem to do anything (anything right) 

here goes......... get ready to be miserable for the rest of your life...

 

Today the sadness is raining from the stars
and like acid in us it burns some painful scars,
invisible, but they're just in front of you,
our will is fading so we won't know what to do.

Sea's full of hope drying up in the sun,
when they've run dry , we're beginning to stun,
the life it contains', it starts to lose,
all feelings we have spend has been abused.

Thinking about these things all day and night,
you will see an with mistrust burning light,
we told to ourselves that we had good lives
and our hearts are embracing those lies.

Emptiness takes place for all of my lust,
my feelings were just blast away by these storm gust,
I'm walking through these mazes, they contain no emotion
they are all just places of my deep devotion.

Lazy bodies walking past so heartless,
changing their faces from brightness to darkness,
in the middle of this crowd, we were standing,
asking ourselves on what we are depending.

Emotions show you that you are alive,
but when they have fade they will leave out a stribe,
it's put on your heart, should hiding your pain,
but when you're hurt, the spots stay the same.

When they rip out your heart, they still have no idea,
they say the same words, that no one of us will hear,
we can remain friends, like we were before,
we try to react, but they will never adore.

We ask ourselves what it was that went wrong,
it is senseless, 'cause their emotions are gone,
like air to breathe we need, anyway we would decease,
we will love them forever, that's why we're so please.

We will still walk for them till the end of time,
stay awake the whole night to see, if they're fine,
all we are expecting is this special smile,
that delights all our hearts once in a while

 

Currently listening to: taking back sunday (what i listen to when i'm wrecked...)
Currently feeling: haaaay...

haaay....

 it's been a long time nanaman...

what have i been doing? well, let's see...

busy with airsoft, school, going out with ianne and my friends, planning our business..

 that's it!

hmm... it's past 1 in the morning and i'm not yet sleeping (what's new??)

by the way, i woke up late today so ok lang... on the other hand... i should be sleeping na kasi i have to go out of the house early... to meet up with ianne.. arg!!!

speaking of ianne.... our relationship is going through a rough time these past few weeks... bwiset!!! i tick off easily and same with him din... we get mad at the smallest things. i don't know what's happening. on the brighter side naman, we  are aware of our situation... we also know our faults and admit it. it's disappointing lang na we get into each others nerves all the time.

 changing the topic. i just have to say this kasi ang kapal talaga ng muka nya... this guy.. my ex (a huge disappointment in my life!!) sobrang feeling!!! he messaged me on YM the other day... and guess what? HE ASSUMED I WOULD GET JEALOUS OF HIS NEW GIRLFRIEND!!!! c'mon you @$$h0/3! don't you think it's quite pathetic for you to assume that?? why would you even think i'd get jealous? you practically ruined my life. and come to think of it... you're nothing compared to what i have right now.. ok, it's given you're GWAPO and most people would agree with me on that. hmm... but that's it! all you have is your looks. nothing more. you're shallow. (sori sa panlalait... but you really are). i pity the girls you had for a fool and who took you seriously (and i curse the day i took part in you're foolishness). i just hope that like me, they would find peace and finally get back on their feet after the disaster you've caused them. for your own betterment and for the sake of the perfect girls you'd be dating and who'd be loving you.... CHANGE THAT FuCK!Ng ATTITUDE!!

 guys...

i'm just glad i found the perfect guy.... i love you ianne!:D 

Currently feeling: working

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CA G36c... my dream gun (for now.. hahahaha)

normal price is about 15K... cheap na cia compared to other high end guns... pro i like this one talaga...

Currently listening to: richard cheese - smoke two joints
Currently feeling: arg!!!

woke up around 11am
took a bath without eating breakfast
went out to have lunch with my family
went back home to watch dvd's

soper tamad!!!!
here's a list of the dvd's i've seen today...

- the transporter
- the transporter 2
- underworld revolution
- nanny mcphee
- the lakehouse
- the devil wears prada
- sweetest thing
- blade2

nyahahahahah todohang movie :D

Currently feeling: tired

haaay... after 3days of living a low tech life (salamat ng marami browout!!!), may kuryente na!!!!!!

drama mode:

today i feel worthless... i can't even comfort my own boyfriend, to think na he's having problems recently. not just one, but patong patong na problems... stress pa binibigay ko... i can't explain but walang kwenta talaga...
it made me think, will this relationship last? i want to... but what if mapikon siya sakin? sobrang asikaso siya sakin but me... hindi nare-reciprocate... he puts too much effort na hindi ko mapantayan yung ginagawa niya. i love him soooo much but i think it's unfair for him...

baby, i'm soooo sori if wla akong kwenta

Currently listening to: digital bath - deftones
Currently feeling: :'(

yey!
i missed writing in my blog... i've been busy kasi... hahahaha

the updates:

> after 4 years of living a single life... inlove na ko!! ampota!
> war games is now in my blood
> i now have twin boys as my "inaanak"
> school's the same... shitty!!
> beer is now my friend... yahoohoo!
> umm... i'm still ugly? nyahahahahah

hmm.. i don't think it's good for me to write in my blog... why? because all i can think about right now is my strong feelings for this guy... ( hi ianne!) sobrang cheesy and well i have to admit... nakakainis na marinig.
whining about heartaches is another thing, but announcing na you're inlove is sobrang... cheesy talaga!!!
(oh well, ianne if mabasa mo 'to don't get mad or whatever... i'm just not used to sharing good things here in my blog... puro bad stuff kasi most of the time basta matters of the heart)

ummm... let me share something about how we met, the history, and the shit between us...
it was one binagagyo day when i was in the car with yano along estrada. we were slapping each other's forehead when yano opened his side of the window and called out to someone... and in an instant, he was in the car with us... that was ianne (in short na pick-up namen siya ni yano sa estrada! nyahahahahah)
after that, ka-chikahan ko na siya and super parasite na ko sa paghinge ng yosi niya... we met july12 (according to ianne) and the next you know, we were dating just before august12... shiat! i know ambilis... (if you guys think na may shit na nangyari samen that's why naging kame agad... you're wrong. with all honesty, nothing happened)

most people would probably think.. "anong shit yan? lokohan?" but we couldn't care less... we know what we have is some serious shit...

enough with the cheeziness...

je t'aime avec tout mon coeur ianne....
*hug*

Currently listening to: my town - armor for sleep
Currently feeling: errrrr... still sedated

Excuse me miss, mawalang galang na
Kanina pa kita kasi napapansin
Magkakilala ba tayo
Ay hindi pasensiya na

Excuse me miss, ako’y nangungulit lang po
Ang ganda mo palang tumawa
Pwede bang magpakilala
Magpakilala sa’yo

Huwag kang matakot sa ‘kin
Hindi ako multo
Kung ayaw mo, ok lang
Pasuyo na lang ng bayad ko, bayad ko

Sukob na, konti na lang
At aandar na ang ating jeepney
Sandaang tao ang nakasakay
Tila galit at naniniksik pa

Tara na, konti na lang
At aandar na ang ating jeepney
Hindi na makapag hintay umuwing
Kasama ka

Excuse me miss, mawalang galang na
Kanina pa kita kasi napapansin
Magkakilala ba tayo,
Ay, hindi e pasensiya na

Huwag kang matakot sa’kin
Hindi ako multo
Kung ayaw mo, ok lang
Pasuyo na lang ng bayad ko

Sukob na, konti na lang
At aandar na ang ating jeepney
Sandaang tao ang nakasakay
Tila galit at naniniksik pa

Tara na, konti na lang
At aandar na ang ating jeepney
Hindi na makapag hintay umuwing
Kasama ka

Hello miss, nakatingin ka na naman
Meron ka bang nais malaman
Aba, oo malapit ako doon
Gusto mo teka lang, saan sa may Bicutan

Salamat ng marami
Dito na ako bababa
Tatawagan na lang kita
Tatawagan na lang kita
Tatawagan na lang kita

Sukob na, konti na lang
At aandar na ang ating jeepney
Sandaang tao ang nakasakay
Tila galit at naniniksik pa

Tara na, konti na lang
Konti na lang, konti na lang
Hindi na makapag hintay umuwing
Kasama ka

Currently feeling: *sedated*